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Sometimes I feel that people are afraid to get close to me because they're afraid to hurt me. Someone actually told me a few days ago that I was so fragile it was difficult to be near me. But you know, I'd rather be hurt than be ignored.

In the same way, I'm afraid of hurting people. That's why I'm also afraid to get close to them. These complications are what I'll call "the perils of intimacy."

I just finished tidying up my part of our room. I'm exhausted… not so much because of the heavy box of readings or the dusty shelves and the piles of books but because of these thoughts which have fluttered into my head.

Hayyy… I'd rather be hurt than be ignored.


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